who am i now?

I could be so much as a dreamer, I could be so much as an artist, but I know i'm neither. I'm more of a peron who's a realist, a person who never quite mastered the arts. Just to make a point, I know myself, very well. At least I thought I did.
Well, I could really say I did. Before I entered UP, I knew who I was. I was this spoiled-but-selfless, childish-but-matured, short-but-sweet, very ironic girl. I loved Math above all subjects because it was the one which seemed less complicated than the others. Somehow, Math had been the subject which I could mostly relate to. Math has difficult problems and easy problems alike, but only one solution to each of them. That's the greatest thing about Math - every problem has its solution.
I never gave up on everything I wanted. I had to get it, no matter what. What I wanted, I got. Fast. But if I didn't get it or it wasn't given to me ASAP, I strive to get it on my own. No one could hinder my path to my goal. No one, nothing.
I gave everything to people. I never thought of myself, whether the things I gave away would be returned, reciprocated, or cherished. I was deprived from a lot of it, but I was mostly happy because I made other people happy, even for a short period of time. I preferred to be miserable just as long as I don't cause anyone's misery. I'd rather keep disappointments with other people to myself rather than let them know and cause a fight. This I did for as long as I could remember and I don't know if anyone knew.
Now why do I seem so dumb? I get high grades in all our subjects except for our Math. Of all subjects, I'm failing Math. It hurts cause I can't say "typical me" because it's not at all typical for me to fail Math. :(( I'm near giving up - on everything. I can't blame anyone and I won't blame anyone because I know this is all my fault. Well hey! At least there's still one thing consistent about me. Haiiii. :((