not the same as before .

Many people reacted to my stat message in Y!M earlier . The one that stated, "Si jem ay si jem . Hindi na siya si jemtot at lalong hindi na siya si best." The message was not yet translated `coz I don`t feel like it and the stat message was as is. Many people started a convo with me and asked if we were in a fight again, if I was mad at him, and what was the reason. I just want to clear things up. Not just because he`s not my bestfriend anymore doesn`t mean i`m mad at him, or we`re in a fight, or because I like him. It`s just that it doesn`t feel like the way it was before. Before he had his clique, he shared his most darkest secrets to me, and me ONLY. But now, he has no time to even talk to me. His time is consumed only by playing. Hadn`t I crossed his mind once while he was playing? Hadn`t he thought that I might be alone and with no one to talk to? I wish I had my old bestfriend back. The one who has time for me. The one who appreciates my existence. The one who shares his secrets. The one whom I love. (Please, don`t misunderstand the last word. I luuuurve him as my bestfriend and not as someone special.) I wish he would be back. Soon. *sniffs*

I promised myself that, "he`ll be the last and this`ll be forever." *sniffs*