Remember how close we used to be? Yeah, i miss that.. a lot:(

Stumbled upon this on the dashboard of one of my social networking sites. I visited it and there was a button to "like" that webpage. This is exactly how I feel right now. I wanna go back to the way we were before, the days when we were so close that there was nothing about him I didn't know and vice-versa. :( I guess he didn't like me being so snoopy. Maybe he did want to keep some things to himself. I don't know. Maybe it just comforted me - the fact that I was being trusted so much by someone whom I haven't known for so long. But I think I betrayed his trust already. Maybe he trusted me to be someone that knows what exactly to do and say. But I'm sorry, I really don't. I'm as confused as he is, I'm as unsure of my words and actions as anyone else who have learned a new culture and new language. After all, it's my first time being separated from my long-time friends.
Maybe I expected too much - that I expected him to be like my high school friends who treated me so well. Yes, he did treat me well, but now, I don't know. Hayst. What has happened? I know I have faults of my own, and I can't blame him for everything that has happened. But for every valid argument that favors me, I could think of a contradictory argument that favors him. So who's really at fault? Well, I think we both just assumed too much, expected too much, and over-thought some things. I don't know how to fix this but I know that whatever happens, I'll be hurt. :( Even now, I'm hurting. SO MUCH. :(
I wish things would just go back the way they were - no serious talks and confrontations involved. But life's never that easy. Now I know that sometimes, we have to do and face things that we'd rather just avoid. :( Gah. I don't know what to do, think, and say anymore. :(( I wanna transfer to another school - extreme measure but uhh. I DON'T KNOW. Gah. I'm so confused I don't even know what to type anymore. :( Gonna leave you hanging cause if I keep on typing, this will all just be "Gah. I don't know. GAAAAAAAAAAAAAH. I really don't know." SORRY. :(