farewell and goodbye's never fail to make me cry .

Status message on Yahoo! Messenger: "I never thought losing a friend could hurt this much."

And for some of you who knows already who i'm pertaining to, maybe you'd share with me a few memory or two that I would blog here further on .

I completely forgot that this was the day that mathheight and her family would move to their new house . I was just told so when I got to Bacoor for a church activity . She was a churchmate of mine by the way . Me and my friends had not been in one car only . So we met there and then na in Bacoor . Just when I had stepped my feet on the grass, childishlymatured told me that mathheight and her family had already moved . Shocked by what I had just heard, I regained my emotions and thoughts as I had just remembered that the driver of the car we took a ride on was mathheight's dad . And then it hit me . A sudden flash back of all those great memories and special occasions we shared with mathheight . (insert static here .) We were the original pechaiiz .! (the name of our group in church) . Me, childishlymature and her, mathheight . We shared laughs, pictures, and more laughs . Our favorite past time was playing HS5 . But now that she's gone, i've lost all enthusiasm of playing the game . What sense would it be .? Playing without a friend .? We also have the same responsiblities and tasks in church that the three of us were almost inseparable . We bonded almost all the time when we had church activities and loose schedules . Just to add to that, she was also my schoolmate . So I really see her everyday . Of course, seeing her go and leave us behind, it will sting . But not much . 'Coz she'll still be around . Just not with us that often . And maybe, just maybe in some games or events in church, we would be rivals . Who would she cheer on .? Her past friends or her new clan .? I just purely wonder . Hay .!

I was bitter for a moment and popularbestfriend spoke for me " How sad no .?" Sad .? Too shallow a word for times like this . I hated goodbye's and farewell's . Why was there a phrase such as "see you" if you would always bid goodbye .? When you say "goodbye" to someone, it's the end . No more hope, nothing to wait for . But when you say "see you", there's a hint of hope and will never fail to keep you waiting . We will miss mathheight terribly, gravely, and undeniably . No more tres marias . *sniffs*

Mathheight : if ever you are reading this, even though you always pick on me and you ignore me often , I still will miss you ghurl .! Don't think of it as being mellowdramatic . It's natural . Just say "see you" and never "goodbye" . See you .! *smiles*