♥ fOrgEt abOut mEh .. ♥

Haii .. How could I even start to describe this day ?? .. Hmm .. Aha ! .. I know ! .. W. A. S. T. E. D !! .. Gosh !! .. So wasted .. Short of sleep .. And that eventually results to short of patience .. [Well ,, that's in my case .. That's always my case .. haha !] At first ,, when I woke up ,, I LITERALLY dragged myself outta bed .. Didn't wanna get up yet .. But what can I do ? .. I need to get good grades to be able to be more active in the KadBin .. So when I got to school ,, was already in a pretty good mood .. But then ,, I saw K .. And I rememberd what happened that Saturday ......... [Insert flashback music here ..] We [Me and A] were from our pagdadalaw .. The pechaiix separated ways when it was 2:o0 .. But she was supposed to go to school at 11 to help make their campaign paraphernalias for the partylist A belonged to in our Student Body Organization .. Being a Harrellian also ,, I was the one to accompany her inside while the other two [eagleman and prettygirl] waited for ous outside .. Inside ,, there they were .. Writing their fingers off for their bookmarks .. I was tasked to cut the edges of the paper using the "craft scissors" .. [Insert tantrum footsteps here .. ] "Hey !! .. I'm not even running as a candidate in the election nor am I a campaign manager of the partylist !! .. But why are you asking me to do this ?? .." was the first thought that came into my mind .. "Oh well ,, i'm already here .. And everyone in the partylist are my friends .. Well ,, except for some people .. Okh ! .. Majority .. So i'd rather do it .." was the second thought .. So in the end ,, I did it .. Being the talkative girl that I was ,, I started talking ,, talking ,, and talking .. Especially to K .. And we were joking around .. I said a corny joke and not a soul laughed .. [Oh the irony ..] Instead ,, they all looked at me like they were all thinking the same thing "Is that a joke ??" But K ,, being a special friend of mine ,, just raised her eyebrows and smiling .. So i said " Oh ! .. One of you are just raising her eyebrows oh !" Being affected ,, she said " Is it bad ??" Then I said " Why are you affected ?? .. So guilty of you ! .. haha !" [Insert laughs here ..] Then she finally said " Okh .. I will not say a word again .. " That was it .. SILENCE .. She hadn't said a word since that statement .. Allof them was like " Oh K what happened ?" "Why aren't you talking ?" "Say a word K !!" "You're not like that !" and etc .. But one of them said the most hurtful thing .. Animeartist said " It's because of Z !! .. K !! .. Say a word already !!" [Ouch !!] That three sentences crushed the good mood of my day .. I felt so deppressed .. Thinking that animeartist was also one of my good friends .. So i stopped cutting the edges of paper .. I lost my enthusiasm for doing it .. The purpose for doing it .. Instead ,, I made the most non-sense things I could ever do .. I couldn't think of anything to make me feel better .. Except to get out of there ,, run as quick as I can ,, don't even say a word of good-bye to anyone of them and let out what I feel in my blog .. But a bit of a coward I am,, I just sat there and contemplated of the things that just happened .. I was so full of emotions that I had to let it out .. Someway .. So I gathered my things ,, stood up ,, and scratched the head of animeartist [my form of deppressed ,, silent good-bye ..] And animeartist instinctly said " Oh Z .. You'e going home already ?? .. " Being as deppressed as I am already ,, I just nodded .. And walked .. So as not to show any kind of remorse to anyone I have left behind .. When I was walking outside the gate of the school ,, I saw authorityaddict and playboyhottie .. They were from the xerox shop .. Authorityaddict noticed the deppressed face of mine [She is also a good friend of mine .. And she knows when i'm ok and when i'm just pretending to be ok and when I really can't be ok ..] So she asked me ,, " Hey Z !! .. What's wrong with you ?? " I can't find the words to say so i just shook my head to pretend that I am ok .. Whatever .. We parted ways because I was really short of words and didn't have the guts to tell her what had really gone wrong with me .. Then someone called my name .. It was prettygirl and eagleman .. Also noticing the expression of my face ,, they also asked me .. First ,, I was hesitant to tell them but I later on told them .. We went home and thanks to prettygirl ,, I forgot all about what happened and the deppressin I felt .. And the rest is history .. [Back to the thing that happened at school] So I saw her ,, she also saw me .. But we just pretended that we didn't know each other .. [Typical thing for us to do if we have misunderstandings like this ..] "Ouch ! .. That hurt ! .. But whatever ,, I will not show her that i'm affected .." So I went on with my day as if nothing's wrong ,, i'm not hurting ,, and as if we're in good terms .. And she also did .. That's when I started to feel W.A.S.T.E.D .. I lost patience .. I couldn't care less anymore .. And finally realized that it's not always a big thing if we're not in good terms or we have misunderstandings .. It's not the end of the world .. "Whew ! .. That took too long for me to realize !! " And until now ,, i'm tired .. Because i'm short of sleep and i'm tired of always trying to be the first one to patch things up between us .. So until now ,, I feel W.A.S.T.E.D .. And all I could say to her now , or rather dedicate to her is this song .. [Just click link if you're curious if what the song is .. ] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bcYlvVJg5tc 'til here .. xOxO ,, Z ..